The Southern Kiwiberry

Yes... FOOD again! I ♥ trying new food! Awhile ago I saw Kiwiberries in my local supermarket and couldn't get it out of my mind! Had to try it, so finally I bought a punnet to try with everyone at home...

"The sweet tasting, healthy super snack that is ready to eat... just like a grape! Delicious in salads, dips or simply as it."

Not exactly an everyday snack. Nearly $3 for a box of 12 which doesn't last very long at all as they're very small. At least they're not hairy like a usual Kiwifruit.

Flash doesn't do it justice...

Doesn't look "ripe" as per the Kiwiberry website photos, but they were really soft already, so I guess ready to eat.

Amazes me that they're so small, but exactly like a Kiwifruit on the inside!!!

So what's the general consensus?!... Yummy! Sweeter than your normal Kiwifruit! I'm loving it! But a con is that they finish too fast! It's great for lazy people, cos you don't need a spoon to dig out the flesh. Just pop it in your mouth after getting rid of the end bit. Even my granny likes it!

How do they come up with miniature fruit?! It's amazing! Or is it genetically modified?! o.O?! But the website says "organic"... However the packaging for this didn't say anything about being organic... The price was pretty organic though! 

I'd probably buy this again on a day when I'm in need of "food theraphy". I'm craving Honeydew all of a sudden! Please make Honeydew berries o.O?

Just some thoughts...

I'm still hooked to listening to Autumn's Concerto soundtrack everyday! It plays while I'm getting ready for work and when I get home from work as well. 90% of the time I'm listening to music at home these days the songs are on repeat haha. I should transfer it to my HD and bring it to work so I can listen to it on repeat there too >.<

Originally I fell in love with the song 我愛他, however I've moved on to love the lyrics of Victor Wong's 我以為:

Victor Wong - 我以為 ( I thought)

你曾说不想有天让我知道
nǐ céng shuō bú xiǎng yǒu tiān ràng wǒ zhī dào
You once said, you wouldn’t want me to ever find out

你对他有那么好
nǐ duì tā yǒu nà me hǎo
How good you’ve been to him

你说会懂 我的失落
nǐ shuō huì dǒng wǒ de shī luò
You said you understood my disappointment

不是靠宽容 就能够解脱
bú shì kào kuān róng jiù néng gòu jiě tuō
And that to forgive didn’t meant a total liberation

我以为 我出现的时候刚好
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ chū xiàn de shí hòu gāng hǎo
I thought my appearance into your life was just about right

你和他 正说要分开
nǐ hé tā zhèng shuō yào fèn kāi
You and him were about to break apart

我以为你 已对他不再期待
wǒ yǐ wéi nǐ yǐ duì tā bú zài qī dài
I thought you no longer had any expectations for him

不纵容他 再给你伤害
bú zòng róng tā zài gěi nǐ shāng hài
And wouldn’t allow him to hurt you anymore

我以为我的温柔 能给你整个宇宙
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ de wēn róu néng gěi nǐ zhěng gè yǔ zhòu
I thought my gentleness could give you the entire universe

我以为我能全力 填满你感情的缺口
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ néng quán lì tián mǎn nǐ gǎn qíng de quē kǒu
I thought I could try my best to fill that empty space in your heart

专心陪在你左右 弥补他一切的错
zhuān xīn péi zài nǐ zuǒ yòu mí bǔ tā yī qiē de cuò
And be by your side always to compensate for the mistakes he made

也许我太过天真 以为奇迹会发生
yě xǔ wǒ tài guò tiān zhēn yǐ wéi qí jì huì fā shēng
Maybe I was overtly naïve to assume that a miracle could happen

我以为终究 你会慢慢明白
wǒ yǐ wéi zhōng jiū nǐ huì màn màn míng bái
I thought you would slowly understand eventually

他的心 已不在你身上
tā de xīn yǐ bú zài nǐ shēn shàng
That his heart was no longer focused on you

我的关心 你依然无动于衷
wǒ de guān xīn nǐ yī rán wú dòng yú zhōng
You remain unmoved by my love for you

我的以为 只是我以为
wǒ de yǐ wéi zhī shì wǒ yǐ wéi
My assumptions were just my assumptions

我以为我的温柔 能给你整个宇宙
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ de wēn róu néng gěi nǐ zhěng gè yǔ zhòu
I thought my gentleness could give you the entire universe

我以为我能全力 填满你感情的缺口
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ néng quán lì tián mǎn nǐ gǎn qíng de quē kǒu
I thought I could try my best to fill that empty space in your heart

专心陪在你左右 弥补他一切的错
zhuān xīn péi zài nǐ zuǒ yòu mí bǔ tā yī qiē de cuò
And be by your side always to compensate for the mistakes he made

也许我太过天真 以为奇迹会发生
yě xǔ wǒ tài guò tiān zhēn yǐ wéi qí jì huì fā shēng
Maybe I was overtly naïve to assume that a miracle could happen

他让你红了眼眶 你却还笑着原谅
tā ràng nǐ hóng le yǎn kuàng nǐ què hái xiào zhe yuán liàng
He made you cry your eyes out and yet you forgave him with a smile

原来你早就想好 你要留在谁的身旁
yuán lái nǐ zǎo jiù xiǎng hǎo nǐ yào liú zài shuí de shēn pang
It turns out you’ve decided long ago, by whose side you will remain

我以为我够坚强 却一天天地失望 (却输得那么绝望)
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ gòu jiān qiáng què yī tiān tiān dì shī wàng (què shū dé nà me jué wàng)
I thought I was strong enough but I’ve lost hope as the days go by (but I’ve lost with all disparity)

少给我一点希望 希望就不是奢望
shǎo gěi wǒ yī diǎn xī wàng xī wàng jiù bú shì shē wàng
Give me less to hope for; and hope will not turn into expectations

Lyrics taken from D-Addicts ;)

Hmmm...  我愛他 lyrics reflect my feelings better, but these are meaningful lyrics nonetheless. Nothing much else to blog about at the moment. Work still sucks, I'm broke as usual, extremely sleep deprived (also as usual) and still listening to sad love songs >.<

Oh, web-wise. I've taken down some of my sites/blogs and given up on some fanlistings. Lets hope this coming weekend I'll have some motivation to work on my websites *fingers crossed*. Oh and amidst my entire night of insomnia on Sunday-Monday, I drew my first fashion sketch in 3+ years! Must *add oil* and try to finish it this weekend. I think my fashion design skills are slipping through my fingers, but will try to practise more. >.<

Just a random post...

On the way to work as usual. Teh-si in one hand and iPhone in the other. Actually it seems that my iPhone is permanently glued to the palm of my hand haha. STILL lovin' it!!! Still waiting for an iPad to fill the void in my lap haha.

It's gonna be a LONG day today! Work then to Zirca to see the CLEO most eligible bachelors finals. Not that I find any I'd those guys hot, but it'll be good to get out of the flat on a Friday night. Then tomorrow... Just SLEEP!!!

Then on Sunday I should work on my sites cos my host moved servers and there are some problem I haven't fixed :( Also gonna take down my 365. YES! I've given up on my Project 365 again! Basically cos my life is pretty boring and I'm always struggling to find things to take photos of when everyday I only go to my office then home. =_=" And that makes my 365 filled with random object photos rather than being a reflection of what I did for the day.

However I will start a photo blog that will just showcase photos I find interesting on a more infrequent basis, but I feel it'll be more interesting than my current 365.

Reaching my cubicle soon. Must not get stressed today!!! :S

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Abnormal sleeping patterns?!

I'm still not bored with my Sleep Cycle Alarm Clock App! But my sleeping patterns are getting worse and so are my sleeping hours!

Last night my graph looked something like this...

Is it normal or really disrupted sleeping?! They say that the graph I'd supposed to show a pattern in 90min intervals?! Well for "normal" sleeping patterns. But I think I don't sleep enough to have normal sleeping patterns =_=" obviously the graph shows I slept after 12am and woke up at 5:30am. My average sleeping time is 4hrs and 39mins. I know it's not enough sleep, but how to achieve everything in one day if you don't stay awake longer?!

Tonight I was supposed to get at least 6hrs sleep, but as usual it's nearly 1am and I'm distracted from sleeping again! My head is getting more sore everyday haha. Ok, totally NOT funny. I am actually worried. But I just want more time!


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No benefits

Blogging in the car again on the way to work. Let's hope today there's no traffic jam like the last time I was blogging in this ride.

I think my understanding of Chinese is sort of getting better, as I actually understood some of the topics they were discussing on the radio this morning on the Chinese radio station I'm forced to listen to on the way to work every morning. It's THE most boring radio station ever! Yes it's 97.2FM.

They were discussing the fact that in Singapore how in a lot of companies, they don't pay for your medical expenses if you don't go to government or appointed "company doctors". Sometimes the Medical Certificate is not even valid if you see an "outside" doctor.

In Singapore society where you NEED a Medical Certificate to claim your medical leave, this is a huge injustice to human rights! It's not like in Australia or other developed nations where you can just call in sick and only need a certtificate in the case of being absent more than 2 days?! This is another example of how Singapore companies treat their workers like children and run the company like a school putting in place ridiculous rules. They don't trust their society as adults.

Why they appoint "company doctors"?! I'm pretty sure that they can use the excuse that it helps us to claim our medical benefits. But from my perspective, I'm pretty sure they have some agreement to cut down our medical leave for the benefit of the company. As opposed to the benefit of our health.

[Edit] A week later... I actually forgot to post this when I arrived at work last week ;P

This past week I've spent some time with my high school friend from Australia who stopped by in Singapore for a few days in her epic holiday around Asia. It was great to meet up with her and at the same time got to meet her boyfriend who also went to our high school but graduated a year before us, but we never knew he existed back then. Must be fate :)

I met up with my high school exchange student friend before we headed to meet them together. My friend's boyfriend introduced us to his friend ALSO from our high school and graduated in the same year as him who is now living in Singapore! Similar circumstance as we're 3 ladies all from the same high school but living in Singapore now. We discovered that we're all experiencing the same types of hardships living in Singapore, be it lifestyle, culture, finding new friends, being away from family and just living away from the "home" we know so well in Australia.

Great to meet a new friend who understands how hard it's been to adapt to the Singapore lifestyle. She's been here 6 years, married, with a baby but is still finding it tough and would like to move back. IF I'm still here 6 years down the track, will I still be holding back the tears everyday not knowing how to deal with everything?! Ugghh!!!

Half way through our mini 5 person high school reunion I was asked "So are you attached?" because the two other ladies are here basically cos they've found their significant other. My reply of course was "No". To get the reply I've been hearing all 3 years since I've been here "Then why are you here?!". LOL. All I can say is "Momentary lapse of stupidity" made me choose to come here. I know I shouldn't be running away from what I need to face one day, but I've already run away. If I go back and have achieved nothing won't I get mocks of "I told you so!" =_="

The same lines keep running through my head: "Why are you here?", "Why would you do that to yourself?", "Go back to Australia", "Get away from here (SG) while you still can!" LOL. Seems I've screwed up BIG time!!!

*heartaches & headaches* =_="

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In another one of those depressive moods...

This is a really nice song with really meaningful and relatable lyrics...



... song from Autumn's Concerto... a really good Taiwanese series to watch!...

I miss Bubu... my dog who passed away 14th October 2006 after being with me for about a decade?! (I think more, should've paid more attention at the start)... I guess things have been going downhill since then. But did he really die?! I never got to see his body. I wasn't home. I wasn't there for him. I'm never there for the people and things that need me. From that point on, I lost everything else important to me.

I hate me now. I hate where I am. I could get a way better job and way better pay that could actually sustain the type of lifestyle that I want instead of earning the peanuts that I am now. But when you have nothing to look forward to, what's the point. Just stay in one place, day to day routines, waiting for life's grand finale. Unless something meaningful comes along. Which doesn't seem likely at this point in time and in these types of places.

Should I stay or should I go?! Singapore Vs. Australia. Ugghh! Sometimes I wish I was a robot devoid of any emotion. Have a dagger through my heart and now an arrow through my head. Hurts more than a physical wound. =_="

Must try to concentrate on making more $. For my benefit and the benefit of people around me. To be able to live the type of lifestyle I want. But then again... No motivational source... Conflicted. No one to lean on, no one to talk to, no one that understands. Everyday just watching people being pretentious while they try to climb on top of everyone else. Why can't people be more considerate and compassionate?! This is an ugly world!!!

*white flag*

Triumphant...

Currently on the way to work. Haven't had the time to blog recently due to my current obsession "Autumn's Concerto" series. Damn heart wrenching!!! Watching this show, it makes me realise why people always say Taiwanese series are all sad and about crying LOL. Can't deny I've shed a tear or two ;P

Had a very fruitful shopping day last Sunday at 313 Somerset... Unfortunately for my bank account! Was supposed to be 'passing through' and 'window shopping' then to make my way down to Takashimaya Cold Storage then Ion 360 Marketplace... Yes! Slight obsession with grocery shopping, house wife syndrome LOL.

Anyways, got to 313 around 6pm ish if I remember correctly. Ended up shopping till 9pm+ carrying 3 bountiful bags of shopping *dies* only to realise I haven't done my grocery shopping! Thank goodness for Google on my iPhone and the fact that Cold Storage Centrepoint stays open till 10:30pm on a Sunday night.

Cold Storage at Centrepoint is not bad. Less salad greens than Northpoint CS, but infinitely better than Causeway Point CS which has COCKROACHES in their shelving! And hardly any fresh greens! What They have look pretty disgusting an the store's layout is crap! Venting, anyways... Another 2 bags of bountiful groceries and I surrendered to Starbucks for a sit down before the long trip back home on the stupid MRT.

I swear I NEVER fail to return home empty handed after going shopping! I don't understand this "window shopping" concept. IF I see it. I will want it and will NEED to buy it to keep my sanity!

Best experience that night would have to be my visit to the Triumph store. Never buy Triumph lingerie at a department store again! I think I spent ages in the store! And their dressing rooms are super nice! Spacious with a vanity, seat, curtains, fluffy rug, "mood simulator" and they have THE best lighting ever that makes you look flawless!!! Would be so good for a cam whoring session haha.

And they give you a membership card so that you get $40 off after buying $300, which is ok considering how much Their stuff costs in the first place. Do they have the membership at department stores too?! How come I've never been offered it till now?! Could've saved heaps haha.

I'm looking forward to watching Alice in Wonderland 3D! LOVE 3D shows! Resisted from buying Urban Decay's Alice Alice Limited Edition eyeshadow palette from Sephora! Only $88!!! But I just got Maquillage's new eyeshadows so attempting not to splurge! But the Alice Alice set is to die for! *regrets* Sometimes sensibility is a pain in the butt!!!

1h later... I'm still on the way to work and LATE! Already late by 15 mins and nowhere near work haha *doomed*. Whenever there's a car crash, the traffic jams are humongous! Should've gone to the docs again today if I had known! My cough is getting worse again! Probabaly cos I'm now sitting directly under an air con at work =_=" I'll never stop coughing!!!

I wonder when I get to work if my 300MB+ of working files have finished downloading so I can do my work! Was downloading for 4hrs yesterday and when I left work it still had 7hrs remaining!!! Insanely slow!... Just like the traffic this morning. I'm SUPER hungry now!!! And 22mins late with no office in sight!

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