In another one of those depressive moods...

This is a really nice song with really meaningful and relatable lyrics...



... song from Autumn's Concerto... a really good Taiwanese series to watch!...

I miss Bubu... my dog who passed away 14th October 2006 after being with me for about a decade?! (I think more, should've paid more attention at the start)... I guess things have been going downhill since then. But did he really die?! I never got to see his body. I wasn't home. I wasn't there for him. I'm never there for the people and things that need me. From that point on, I lost everything else important to me.

I hate me now. I hate where I am. I could get a way better job and way better pay that could actually sustain the type of lifestyle that I want instead of earning the peanuts that I am now. But when you have nothing to look forward to, what's the point. Just stay in one place, day to day routines, waiting for life's grand finale. Unless something meaningful comes along. Which doesn't seem likely at this point in time and in these types of places.

Should I stay or should I go?! Singapore Vs. Australia. Ugghh! Sometimes I wish I was a robot devoid of any emotion. Have a dagger through my heart and now an arrow through my head. Hurts more than a physical wound. =_="

Must try to concentrate on making more $. For my benefit and the benefit of people around me. To be able to live the type of lifestyle I want. But then again... No motivational source... Conflicted. No one to lean on, no one to talk to, no one that understands. Everyday just watching people being pretentious while they try to climb on top of everyone else. Why can't people be more considerate and compassionate?! This is an ugly world!!!

*white flag*