Today is... sappy love song day...

Woke up with an EXTREMELY stiff neck!!! Everything seems slow (maybe because I haven't been able to do much whilst maintaining this 'my neck doesn't hurt at this angle pose') and I'm in a melancholic type of mood. Don't ask me why! I often fall into these depressed moods. I've read somewhere that eating wheat when you're actually gluten intolerant can amplify these types of feelings... =_=" Looks like I've just dobbed myself in for eating wheat again haha >.<"

Making breakfast, suddenly out of nowhere the lyrics pop into my head:

When can I see you again
When can my heart beat again
When can I see you again
And when can I breathe once again
And when can I see you... again
"When Can I See You Again" Babyface

... probably never =_=" ... Then that song reminded me of:

Every time I close my eyes
I thank the lord that I've got you
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself cuz I don't believe it's true
That someone like you loves me too
"Every Time I Close My Eyes" Babyface

... these days, every time I close my eyes I'm reminded... I have no one hahaha =_=" ... which led me to remember I've been hearing this song everywhere I go these days:

I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight
"My All" Mariah Carey

... My All is such an old song already, but I've been hearing it blasting through Orchard Rd, and in shops everywhere... it's stalking me!!! =_=" But it's a really nice song and kinda sad =(

Today I just feel like listening to all the sad songs. Blackberry Molasses by Mista, Superwoman by Karyn White etc... It's so sunny outside, but feels so gloomy inside. Such is life I guess when you have nothing and no one to depend on anymore. Everything and everyone you believe in turns out to be an illusion and the only person you can truly depend on is yourself =_=" I wish to be happy again... one day. Till then I'll just keep smiling on the outside.

Work again tomorrow! Too quick!!! *virtual gag*