The Butterfly's Story...

FINALLY my Pei2.com has kinda been revamped and ready to roll... after 3 years or so of procrastination?! Seriously I haven't been in the mood to blog for ages, been too caught up with emotion, but 2010 I'm forcing myself to get back into my website designing. And also partially influenced by the fact that I need to make money to maintain my hosting fees etc. （￣～￣;）  I can't bear to let go of my hosting, which I've had for years, I think I'd be lost without it and would flip out if I had to use free hosting because they just don't provide me with enough tools to intricately maintain my sites.

There are still a lot of things that need adjustments around the site, especially the lack of one of the most important aspects of a website... a Navigation system!!!... I'll try to fix that up before next weekend.

This time around I've decided to go for a more simple look for my site, no more flashy javascript etc. I just don't have the time to maintain my sites like I used to. On to the Butterfly's Story...

I actually took this photo of these butterflies at Sentosa's Butterfly Park & Insect Kingdom back in November. Ever since then, this photo holds a significant place in my heart. It's always interesting to observe the way that animals behave. In this instance, the mourning butterfly kept returning to the dead butterfly to hold vigil. They were the same species of butterfly and from the appearance of the dead butterfly, it had only just died.

I never knew that butterflies would behave in this manner. Even if the butterfly was frightened off, it would return in a few minutes to watch over it's friend.  To me it represents a type of devotion, or everlasting love. It actually makes me feel sad looking back upon the people who have come and gone from my life, not specifically though death. And knowing that even though I hold them close to my heart, they'll never come back even though I dearly wish they would.  (×_×;)

I've had one comment that the photo looks "emo". I don't believe so. If you look past the colours, there's a deeper emotion that will affect most of us in our lifetime at one point in time. This is how I feel right now. Battling emotions everyday and trying to stand on my own two feet and live life alone. It's a long hard struggle. Maybe one day I'll get past this stage... maybe...

On the other hand, if you don't believe in true love, you could always imagine that the live butterfly is sucking the magical powers out of the dead butterfly!!! Haha... over-imaginative!!! Goodnight!