In another one of those depressive moods...

This is a really nice song with really meaningful and relatable lyrics...



... song from Autumn's Concerto... a really good Taiwanese series to watch!...

I miss Bubu... my dog who passed away 14th October 2006 after being with me for about a decade?! (I think more, should've paid more attention at the start)... I guess things have been going downhill since then. But did he really die?! I never got to see his body. I wasn't home. I wasn't there for him. I'm never there for the people and things that need me. From that point on, I lost everything else important to me.

I hate me now. I hate where I am. I could get a way better job and way better pay that could actually sustain the type of lifestyle that I want instead of earning the peanuts that I am now. But when you have nothing to look forward to, what's the point. Just stay in one place, day to day routines, waiting for life's grand finale. Unless something meaningful comes along. Which doesn't seem likely at this point in time and in these types of places.

Should I stay or should I go?! Singapore Vs. Australia. Ugghh! Sometimes I wish I was a robot devoid of any emotion. Have a dagger through my heart and now an arrow through my head. Hurts more than a physical wound. =_="

Must try to concentrate on making more $. For my benefit and the benefit of people around me. To be able to live the type of lifestyle I want. But then again... No motivational source... Conflicted. No one to lean on, no one to talk to, no one that understands. Everyday just watching people being pretentious while they try to climb on top of everyone else. Why can't people be more considerate and compassionate?! This is an ugly world!!!

*white flag*

Triumphant...

Currently on the way to work. Haven't had the time to blog recently due to my current obsession "Autumn's Concerto" series. Damn heart wrenching!!! Watching this show, it makes me realise why people always say Taiwanese series are all sad and about crying LOL. Can't deny I've shed a tear or two ;P

Had a very fruitful shopping day last Sunday at 313 Somerset... Unfortunately for my bank account! Was supposed to be 'passing through' and 'window shopping' then to make my way down to Takashimaya Cold Storage then Ion 360 Marketplace... Yes! Slight obsession with grocery shopping, house wife syndrome LOL.

Anyways, got to 313 around 6pm ish if I remember correctly. Ended up shopping till 9pm+ carrying 3 bountiful bags of shopping *dies* only to realise I haven't done my grocery shopping! Thank goodness for Google on my iPhone and the fact that Cold Storage Centrepoint stays open till 10:30pm on a Sunday night.

Cold Storage at Centrepoint is not bad. Less salad greens than Northpoint CS, but infinitely better than Causeway Point CS which has COCKROACHES in their shelving! And hardly any fresh greens! What They have look pretty disgusting an the store's layout is crap! Venting, anyways... Another 2 bags of bountiful groceries and I surrendered to Starbucks for a sit down before the long trip back home on the stupid MRT.

I swear I NEVER fail to return home empty handed after going shopping! I don't understand this "window shopping" concept. IF I see it. I will want it and will NEED to buy it to keep my sanity!

Best experience that night would have to be my visit to the Triumph store. Never buy Triumph lingerie at a department store again! I think I spent ages in the store! And their dressing rooms are super nice! Spacious with a vanity, seat, curtains, fluffy rug, "mood simulator" and they have THE best lighting ever that makes you look flawless!!! Would be so good for a cam whoring session haha.

And they give you a membership card so that you get $40 off after buying $300, which is ok considering how much Their stuff costs in the first place. Do they have the membership at department stores too?! How come I've never been offered it till now?! Could've saved heaps haha.

I'm looking forward to watching Alice in Wonderland 3D! LOVE 3D shows! Resisted from buying Urban Decay's Alice Alice Limited Edition eyeshadow palette from Sephora! Only $88!!! But I just got Maquillage's new eyeshadows so attempting not to splurge! But the Alice Alice set is to die for! *regrets* Sometimes sensibility is a pain in the butt!!!

1h later... I'm still on the way to work and LATE! Already late by 15 mins and nowhere near work haha *doomed*. Whenever there's a car crash, the traffic jams are humongous! Should've gone to the docs again today if I had known! My cough is getting worse again! Probabaly cos I'm now sitting directly under an air con at work =_=" I'll never stop coughing!!!

I wonder when I get to work if my 300MB+ of working files have finished downloading so I can do my work! Was downloading for 4hrs yesterday and when I left work it still had 7hrs remaining!!! Insanely slow!... Just like the traffic this morning. I'm SUPER hungry now!!! And 22mins late with no office in sight!

~ Posted via Pei²'s iPhone o.Ov

Zero connectivity... Day 1

I seriously CAN NOT live without Internet access to civilisation!!! Day 1 company trip. Bored out of my mind! Totally like drift wood today! Just going with the flow!!!

Found connectivity! But my hopes were short lived... Found a free Internet service, but the connection or speed is SO bad that it doesn't work!!! *pulls out hair*

And right now as I'm typing this up on my iPhone, it's absolutely POURING!!! WTF!!! And from the looks of it, this stupid conference room is isolated away from the damn hotel! So either this stupid meeting ends later or the stupid rain ends SOON!!! Farkin'!!! I have to walk on wet ground!!! Ahhh!!! This is not relaxing at all!!!

Now waiting for my medicine to kick in and numb my senses! *screaming*


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Never enough time!!!

It's nearly 2am and I'm not asleep yet! So many things left undone and I have no time to finish it!!! Plus on Friday we have to go to Malaysia for a company thing and we don't get to come back till Saturday evening! It couldn't be at a worse time! What a waste if a Saturday! And I don't even want to think about the roaming charges for my phone!!! What a waste of money because it's wasted on Malaysia instead of some better country!

OMG I'm freaking out!!! I'm not even feeling sleepy! Probably because of the adrenalin rush from anxiety! So much to worry about!!! And Malaysia's known for robberies etc. Now I gotta worry what I bring there and if I lose it will I be mortified! But I'll throw a fit if I lose any of my belongings! Cos to buy it back costs MONEY!!! And money is a very precious and rare commodity to me at this point in time!!! Raawwrrr!!! Angry!!!

Needs to earn extra cash. Weekend job? =_="

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Irritatingly painful!

I've been constantly reminded of my prawn fishing expedition for 16 days already! And it's a painful reminder!

Started off on a scorching hot sunny Singapore day... my friend's visiting from Aus and he wanted to go fishing. After taking a huge detour taking a taxi from Pasir Ris MRT to the kayaking end of Pasir Ris Park (where the taxi driver thought the fishing pond was), then trekking and eventually tandem cycling our way through the Park to the pond (which is actually just across the road from Pasir Ris MRT station *slams head into brick wall*). We looked around and decided to prawn fish instead. THE best decision EVER!

After paying for an hour each ($13), at the end of the hour our total prawn count was ZERO!!! (@^_^@) But we weren't going to go there and not catch anything at all! So we extended the time. They have a 3h + 1h free package for $39 which is great because if you go with 2 people they let you split it for 2 hours each! Whilst paying for the next two hours I embarrassingly asked the uncle at the booth "so... how exactly do you prawn fish?" LOL as we kept getting bites, but we couldn't figure out the technique to hook them out of the water!

The uncle there was really nice and got another uncle who is seriously an expert at prawn fishing to teach us. Even though as a pro the said the prawns weren't biting well that day, we managed to catch around 15 decent sized prawns in that 2 hours. Best challenging fun ever! I totally want to go again... and again... and again >;P

Worms! (which I didn't want to touch initially, but eventually did for the sake of the prawns) ;P

Big prawns!

Yummy prawns!!! Butter prawns & Sambal prawns! I *heart* the butter prawns!

Now the painful reminder... as I was scared to catch the live prawns, I wasn't very quick and decisive in the way I grabbed them, so a couple managed to flick and their tail spike pricked me a few times on my pinky finger. One prick was quite bad and managed to draw some blood, but I'm no stranger to cuts so I just ignored it. A few days later I tried to write something and felt the side of my pinky knuckle hurting. The worst prick has actually grown into a small lump =(  The other pricks are slowly healing.

I happened to bring it up with my doctor when I went in because of my cough. He said there was some tissue build up, but because I was on anti-biotics it should heal too. Which is what I figured in the first place, but decided to bring it up with him because I was already on anti-biotics for 5 days at that stage. He asked if it has been less painful since taking the anti-biotics. I said no. Then he said it will heal... o_O! Sometimes doctors give the most blatant answers! *rolls eyes*

But 1 week on... it's still a lump and it still hurts at the slightest touch! And I was on anti-biotics for 8 days! Obviously they didn't help!... So now... how? I've googled for other people who have had something similar and only got one lady who got pricked while she was peeling prawns. But her prick developed puss then she went to the docs and got it fixed. But my doctor thinks it'll heal itself?! =_=" I can't write properly or use my Wacom tablet properly either! Rawwrrr!!! Anyways, my cough still isn't going away and I'm nearly out of medicine plus I have to go on my company's sales retreat in a few days so I'll have to pay the doctor a visit and tell him about this painful reminder again ~_~"