In a mess...

I seem to have neglected my blog again!... Time for a major shake up soon. Moving things around again soon... but highly unsure when "soon" will be. Totally busy with work but still left with too much spare, lonely time on my hands to think... Thinking too much leads to memories, sadness, heartache, tears, fears and more tears =_=" Having chest pains, breathlessness and dry mouth today again!... Seems like a stroke right?! They haven't really subsided. In addition to that I've developed a sore throat and a cough is starting to flare up too =_=" I hate sore throats!!! Actually I hate being sick, but doesn't everyone?! Think I need to stock up and start popping various supplements again >.<"

Went out tonight in need of shopping theraphy... thought it would make the stress subside... but alas... NO! Still feeling the stress. Thought I was coping ok for awhile!... Thought I was having fun... but as soon as I'm boxed up in my cubicle on Monday mornings... the realisation of having to face such a large pile of work just swallows me whole. I need to find more to life...

Lets start by getting Sorted...

OK... *geek*... I know I am... I love books... though... reading isn't really my passion haha... o.O?! Hopefully this will give me some organisation tips haha... Feel like I'm losing it, so hopefully after reading this and tidying up I can tidy up my life as well?! Hehe... ok not much hope. But it seems like a nice book and I like storage ideas >.<

Anyways... sorethroat is getting irritating!!!...

Losing it!!!

I'm going out of my mind!!! I don't have enough time to blog, to organise or to sleep!!! And I can't find my favouite hairclip and earrings that I took to Japan! I'm still hoping they'll turn up! I haven't had time to fully unpack since the trip, so hopefully they're still lingering around. I'm hoping the same for my taxi receipt for my taxi ride home for the trip, cos if I can't find it then I can't claim!!! I know I should've taken better care of it, but I got home at a really dodgy time 2:30am!!! So I was trying to get out of the cab with my 3 luggage/bags and bottles of Amaretto & Baileys, it was quite a struggle. Plus at that dodgy time I'm only thinking bout racing up to my flat!!! Of course when home the only thing to do at that time is crash to sleep!! And the taxi receipt is so dodgily small!!! Ugghhh!!! Furthermore I had a packed weekend...

After going to sleep at about 3am I woke up at 10am then 12pm got picked up to go to Formula Drift to see the action. Fun fun!!! Went there again the next day (Sunday) and took lots of mad photos, but not before attending a work event early in the morning. Managed to fit in a foot & shoulder massage (that hurt like hell) between the events too!

Even Monday was quite busy. Had to take urgent leave cos I didn't know it was my granny's birthday (I don't look at the Chinese calendar) and didn't wanna miss her bday lunch. Wish we could've had a small party instead like we have most years but I guess everyone's busy. Family should come before work. When you're old and grey, work's not going to be there to look after you. When you're down and sick, work's not going to care for you. Must treat family better!

Until now I haven't caught up with my chores! Seems like there's never enough time!!!

~ Signing off 2 days after I started typing up this post =) *happier these days*

~ Posted via Pei²'s iPhone o.Ov

Loving Japanese cosmetics!

Short post... These are some of my NEW current favourite cosmetic products =D Singapore has such a huge variety to choose from! There's your usual suspects: Shiseido, Dior, Shu Uemura, Benefit, etc. Then there's Japanese, Korean, Taiwanese, etc. products. But definitely the eye catchers are the Japanese products with their drool-worthy packaging!

I wanted these two products on first sight, but decided to wait awhile before purchasing. When I went back a few days later, the lip concealer was already sold out! So I bought the face powder and zoomed around to find another outlet with the lippy.

Sana Lip concealer/moisturiser and Pink colour face powder.

The Nude lip colour is amazing! The first time I put it on I was thinking "OMG what have I bought?! It's like dark brownish/orange colour", but now I love it! Maybe the first time I put it on I wasn't used to the natural look and I applied it a little heavy. I can't live without it now! It goes great under lipstick and gloss too! Gives a totally natural appearance which I'm loving right now.

The pink face powder is actually said to give a Computer Graphic finish to your makeup. There are 2 shades I think. Pink and Skin Tone. I usually go for the pink as it makes your face look brighter and healthier.  The powder gives a nice sheen, but not overly glittery which is good :)

Another recent cosmetic product I've purchased and totally loving is Shiseido's Matte Lipstick from "The Makeup" range. It goes great over Sana's Lip Concealer too! It's seriously Matte, so if you have dry lips, avoid at all costs OR moisturise!!! If like me with slightly dry lips at times (when I forget to apply my lip balm the day before), just dab on some lip gloss on top of the lip colour... press your lips together a few times and ta-da! Still reasonably matte colour, whilst dry lips are not as noticible.

Shiseido Perfect Rogue Glowing Matte PK224 Sugar Babe
P.S. Aren't O.P.I. Designer Series nail polishes just brilliant!!!

Also I highly recommend Shu Uemura's Depsea Hydrability Moisturizing Lip Balm! Apart from the fact it tastes nice (not that I'm eating my lip gloss on purpose haha), it really works!!! Provided you apply it at least morning and night.

Time for bed. Still sleep deprived AS USUAL. I've increased my average sleeping time each night to 4hrs 48mins (over 36 nights). Ok, so the increase is only about 10mins per night on average =S Probably aided by the fact on weekends I can sleep over 12hours in a night, provided I have nothing on hehe. But on an average work night, I get about 4hrs sleep which I know is seriously not enough. Feeling the effects! And also probably the fact that I have been eating lots of wheat and totally disregarded my wheat intollerace recently =(  That contributes greatly to my lethargicness and bloatedness!!! Goodnight... Zzz...

The Southern Kiwiberry

Yes... FOOD again! I ♥ trying new food! Awhile ago I saw Kiwiberries in my local supermarket and couldn't get it out of my mind! Had to try it, so finally I bought a punnet to try with everyone at home...

"The sweet tasting, healthy super snack that is ready to eat... just like a grape! Delicious in salads, dips or simply as it."

Not exactly an everyday snack. Nearly $3 for a box of 12 which doesn't last very long at all as they're very small. At least they're not hairy like a usual Kiwifruit.

Flash doesn't do it justice...

Doesn't look "ripe" as per the Kiwiberry website photos, but they were really soft already, so I guess ready to eat.

Amazes me that they're so small, but exactly like a Kiwifruit on the inside!!!

So what's the general consensus?!... Yummy! Sweeter than your normal Kiwifruit! I'm loving it! But a con is that they finish too fast! It's great for lazy people, cos you don't need a spoon to dig out the flesh. Just pop it in your mouth after getting rid of the end bit. Even my granny likes it!

How do they come up with miniature fruit?! It's amazing! Or is it genetically modified?! o.O?! But the website says "organic"... However the packaging for this didn't say anything about being organic... The price was pretty organic though! 

I'd probably buy this again on a day when I'm in need of "food theraphy". I'm craving Honeydew all of a sudden! Please make Honeydew berries o.O?

Just some thoughts...

I'm still hooked to listening to Autumn's Concerto soundtrack everyday! It plays while I'm getting ready for work and when I get home from work as well. 90% of the time I'm listening to music at home these days the songs are on repeat haha. I should transfer it to my HD and bring it to work so I can listen to it on repeat there too >.<

Originally I fell in love with the song 我愛他, however I've moved on to love the lyrics of Victor Wong's 我以為:

Victor Wong - 我以為 ( I thought)

你曾说不想有天让我知道
nǐ céng shuō bú xiǎng yǒu tiān ràng wǒ zhī dào
You once said, you wouldn’t want me to ever find out

你对他有那么好
nǐ duì tā yǒu nà me hǎo
How good you’ve been to him

你说会懂 我的失落
nǐ shuō huì dǒng wǒ de shī luò
You said you understood my disappointment

不是靠宽容 就能够解脱
bú shì kào kuān róng jiù néng gòu jiě tuō
And that to forgive didn’t meant a total liberation

我以为 我出现的时候刚好
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ chū xiàn de shí hòu gāng hǎo
I thought my appearance into your life was just about right

你和他 正说要分开
nǐ hé tā zhèng shuō yào fèn kāi
You and him were about to break apart

我以为你 已对他不再期待
wǒ yǐ wéi nǐ yǐ duì tā bú zài qī dài
I thought you no longer had any expectations for him

不纵容他 再给你伤害
bú zòng róng tā zài gěi nǐ shāng hài
And wouldn’t allow him to hurt you anymore

我以为我的温柔 能给你整个宇宙
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ de wēn róu néng gěi nǐ zhěng gè yǔ zhòu
I thought my gentleness could give you the entire universe

我以为我能全力 填满你感情的缺口
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ néng quán lì tián mǎn nǐ gǎn qíng de quē kǒu
I thought I could try my best to fill that empty space in your heart

专心陪在你左右 弥补他一切的错
zhuān xīn péi zài nǐ zuǒ yòu mí bǔ tā yī qiē de cuò
And be by your side always to compensate for the mistakes he made

也许我太过天真 以为奇迹会发生
yě xǔ wǒ tài guò tiān zhēn yǐ wéi qí jì huì fā shēng
Maybe I was overtly naïve to assume that a miracle could happen

我以为终究 你会慢慢明白
wǒ yǐ wéi zhōng jiū nǐ huì màn màn míng bái
I thought you would slowly understand eventually

他的心 已不在你身上
tā de xīn yǐ bú zài nǐ shēn shàng
That his heart was no longer focused on you

我的关心 你依然无动于衷
wǒ de guān xīn nǐ yī rán wú dòng yú zhōng
You remain unmoved by my love for you

我的以为 只是我以为
wǒ de yǐ wéi zhī shì wǒ yǐ wéi
My assumptions were just my assumptions

我以为我的温柔 能给你整个宇宙
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ de wēn róu néng gěi nǐ zhěng gè yǔ zhòu
I thought my gentleness could give you the entire universe

我以为我能全力 填满你感情的缺口
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ néng quán lì tián mǎn nǐ gǎn qíng de quē kǒu
I thought I could try my best to fill that empty space in your heart

专心陪在你左右 弥补他一切的错
zhuān xīn péi zài nǐ zuǒ yòu mí bǔ tā yī qiē de cuò
And be by your side always to compensate for the mistakes he made

也许我太过天真 以为奇迹会发生
yě xǔ wǒ tài guò tiān zhēn yǐ wéi qí jì huì fā shēng
Maybe I was overtly naïve to assume that a miracle could happen

他让你红了眼眶 你却还笑着原谅
tā ràng nǐ hóng le yǎn kuàng nǐ què hái xiào zhe yuán liàng
He made you cry your eyes out and yet you forgave him with a smile

原来你早就想好 你要留在谁的身旁
yuán lái nǐ zǎo jiù xiǎng hǎo nǐ yào liú zài shuí de shēn pang
It turns out you’ve decided long ago, by whose side you will remain

我以为我够坚强 却一天天地失望 (却输得那么绝望)
wǒ yǐ wéi wǒ gòu jiān qiáng què yī tiān tiān dì shī wàng (què shū dé nà me jué wàng)
I thought I was strong enough but I’ve lost hope as the days go by (but I’ve lost with all disparity)

少给我一点希望 希望就不是奢望
shǎo gěi wǒ yī diǎn xī wàng xī wàng jiù bú shì shē wàng
Give me less to hope for; and hope will not turn into expectations

Lyrics taken from D-Addicts ;)

Hmmm...  我愛他 lyrics reflect my feelings better, but these are meaningful lyrics nonetheless. Nothing much else to blog about at the moment. Work still sucks, I'm broke as usual, extremely sleep deprived (also as usual) and still listening to sad love songs >.<

Oh, web-wise. I've taken down some of my sites/blogs and given up on some fanlistings. Lets hope this coming weekend I'll have some motivation to work on my websites *fingers crossed*. Oh and amidst my entire night of insomnia on Sunday-Monday, I drew my first fashion sketch in 3+ years! Must *add oil* and try to finish it this weekend. I think my fashion design skills are slipping through my fingers, but will try to practise more. >.<